"Almost dead, almost gone."

Hi people, I haven't been updating for quite some time now. I'm still waiting for the photos to be sent to me by Ruq. Me and Rayyan went to Ruq's birthday pit on Saturday actually. Lotsa more happened on Saturday but I'm not going to elaborate anything just yet until the photos are received.

So anyways, I have become a little busy bee buzzing here and there. Juggling just like a clown too with work and school. I don't know how long more I can take this. I get too fatigue too easily and all I want to do is sleep. I don't really understand why because my job is just to sit here in front of the computer. Seems all too relaxing huh? Well, I guess I'm just so mentally tired. I'm quitting soon anyway so I can focus a lot more on school.

As you people already know, I have chronic insomnia so it isn't easy to be well rested without taking all that pills. I've become so dependent on these little things that everything has become a blur. I don't think straight anymore and my memory has been from bad to worse. I don't remember much of all the happenings around me unless they leave significant scars on me.

Honestly, I am just so sick and tired of everything. I don't wish to be in this state where I have to point, choose and decide. I hurt people and surprisingly I don't care.

And you, you're always pulling me back.
Just let me be.
Im tired. So tired.