"Stick to the same page."

Hello my fellow readers! Wow! My life is so hectic ey, busy bee is what you should call me now. Besides staying busy being an employee of Starhub and a student in the psychology field, I'm pretty much content with life. I'm enjoying every bit of it. It's surprising how I can hold on this long, well with the help from my loved ones of course. Being happy that is. Yes, I do have those days when I just want to crawl to bed and weep all night but I'm okay now, as those times rarely come by. I guess my mindset is changed. All I think about is him. He makes my days and nights all worthwhile that I barely even look back in the sorrowful past. Oh well, as what people would say, let bygones be bygones right?

Oh, I have removed the stud off my tongue. What is left is the pathetic little hole on it. Ha ha. I just got so sick of it, trust me. Rayyan cussed at me when he first learned about it and he started saying things like how I've changed and that I was not supposed to be like this. He added by saying that he doesn't know me anymore. That's right. He doesn't know me at all. In his head, I was still the same naive girl back in year 2001.

I am nothing but thankful to have met somebody like Apek. Sure, I have those bitch fits with all those ugly words thrown and harsh treatments I made him go through. He is so patient and real nice with me all along.

As for now, I'm begging time to slow down, if not, stop ticking because I really do not want him to go. National Service sure sucks. It is almost useless to even serve the country and for what? Even if a bomb is to drop in Singapore, I don't think we can even save ourselves. Why? This is a tiny red dot! Everyone would be gone in just like that. What about Mas Selamat? I don't hear anything about him anymore. Have they catch him already? Okay fine, I don't even know what I'm blabbing about here. My main point is I don't want Apek to leave!

10 June. I'll be there to see him off. Just a few weeks from now and oh, a few days to my birthday. Oh god. I am going to be a year older. I know I have got to accept the fact even though I hate the reality of being old old old. Time to step up and be responsible. I think age is catching up on me because I constantly feel so tired. I know I'm exaggerating here. Hah, what the heck. I really get so worn out easily you see. One funny thing is I still don't have wisdom tooth growing at the back of my mouth. What is wrong with this picture here? Hello? I'm about to enter adulthood. Bah.

Someone had left a message for me in Chatango. Whoever you are, smile okay? I am nothing but a creation from god. I understand how you feel exactly. I feel you so much. Everyone has flaws they wish they never had. Humans will never be contented with themselves, be it physical or not. That's when envy and jealousy set in. You want what the next person has or worst you will feel hatred towards that person who you think has everything you don't. It's all in the head actually but tell me, is it worth your time worrying that your appearance differs from another?

Dress however you like, doll yourself up in whichever colour you wish. Look at yourself in the mirror and spot the most distinguish feature that is attractive to you. As for me, it's my lips. Sure I have thick lips but I love it because it's juicy and soft. That is my opinion. You will feel better about yourself if you try, trust me. I did.

It doesn't matter if others think differently from your thinking. People may say things to bring you down but you know that actions speak louder than words. They can never bring you down, instead you just laugh it off. Hey, people notice you at least. Anyway, flaws are there whether you like it or not. Accept yourself. I'm still learning how.

Remember, you just cannot please everyone.

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Anyway, here are the leftover pics from the other outing with Apek and Fai.
Sometimes I hate smiling widely. It makes my face extra chubby. Bah.

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I'm hitting the sack now.
See you people around.